no-sex

 

Sigh, let me give you a tiny bit of background….

I was married way too long, with a person way too wrong for me. In a nutshell, we had a very boring sex life! I understand now that it was due to my lack of real love and interest. I was the typical I-have-a-head ache-not now kinda wifey.Ā  This was the tip of the iceberg of my many well thought of excuses to avoid the inevitable.

I know, terrible. But i was just so unsatisfied. I never had an orgasm, never… do you not feel sorry for me lol. I read all the how to’s and what to’s to try and experience this with my then-partner to no avail. He could not make me cum… it was just sadĀ  I was not just disinterested in sex, but in anything to do with sex with him. The mere thought of going down on him grossed me out.

I always thought it was me, and it was. It was all me and how i felt towards my partner…. I know this now because I have a new partner… so some time after a very messy divorce I found love, and orgasms šŸ™‚ šŸ™‚

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